This morning about 8:22 I got a call from the vet. I figured she would be calling to let me know Audrey was up and that she kept her food down. Well, when they came in this morning she was not up ready to greet them. She was unconscious. She was breathing on her own, but things did not look good. This is not the news I wanted to hear. I spent all last night getting ready to bring her home today. I spent all last night anticipating that we would get to spend a nice quiet recovery weekend with Audrey.
About 9:45 the vet called and said Audrey was not any better, actually Audrey was trying to die. I had to give permission to put her to sleep. I just could not bear the thought of her suffering anymore. The vet said Audrey was fighting it with everything she had, but the parvo had just depleted her.
This has been an extremely trying day to say the least. I could not wait for Audrey to come after yesterday. That wonderful little creature in such a short time had won over my heart. It broke my heart to have to do what I did today, even though I know it was the best thing for her. I have had two other dogs in my life. I know for a fact Audrey's death has hit me harder than either of the other two. It has just be awful. My head understands what has happened, but my heart does not want to hear it or believe it.
Emma has a birthday party/slumber party to go to this weekend so I am not going to tell Emma until she gets home on Sunday. I don't want to ruin her slumber party.
I am not sure when we will get another one. I know we will. After you have a dog in your house, you cannot bear to not have one. There is too much of a stillness when there is not one. Things are out of place. Some warmth is missing from your home. And I know for sure I will have an empty spot in my heart as well as my home now.
So now we wait, and we pray for Audrey. Pray she is okay and being taken care by my Grandmother Audrey and Miss Alicia's Audrey, for I know they will all get along famously well. Our little Audrey was a firecracker, and I would like to think all Audrey's live up to that title as well.
Goodbye little one, we will always love you and treasure the time you spent with us. We will miss you something awful.