Things could be well, better

My job woes are still so ever present.  I do not like my boss... I used to like my job... well, that was until my boss delegated EVERYTHING he does not want to deal with to me.  I could handle my job the way it was before, but my boss just keeps piling on more with unrealistic expectations.  I just do not know what to do.. the unhappiness in my job has well spilled over into my personal life.  I have gained weight, quite a bit, I have no time to do anything or energy to work out.  I am gripe... and worst of all, any creative mojo I had is just gone.  I really mean... gone....  There is also the dealing with Emma's father.   AND the fact we have had some nasty stomach virus in our household... yuck!

I know others before me have gone through this, and lived to talk about it... but I just do not know what to do.  I know, find another job, but good luck in this environment.  I really want to find a job closer to home that does not involve as much stress.  It just seems that I need something with less stress and where I am able to be more available for Emma's activities.

I feel I have a lot of soul searching to do.   Boy this makes me think about when I was in college.  I was so hell bent on being a "city girl" with a big job.  I should have spent a lot more time paying attention to those Ag boys.  Oh to live on a farm.. that would be the life for me.   Get up and work on the farm every day.  Horses, cows, sheep, chickens goats...  I keep saying  that if I ever won a bunch of money, I would chuck all this and buy a farm.  Oh how I would love it.  Yes it would be hard work, but a different kind of hard work.

I have to find my craft mojo SOON.  But Em and I are going to do a big purge this weekend.  Then I can get the house in order and start crafting again.  I have a urge to do some embroidery in a big way.  Maybe some over the shoulder bags for Em and I.  That way when we go on nature walks we will have somewhere to put the loot plus all the crayons and paper for rubbings..... 

Comments

[Mary Ann/ca]

Hi Beth, I am hoping this is your end of winter blahs....there are times in all of our lives where it takes all the effort to just put one foot in front of the other. Sounds like you're there now.I'm hoping your Spring is just around the corner in more ways than one. Oh to be crafting with the birds singing, sun shining and Emma and Audrey playing in the new grass!